I would like to backpedal all I can, because I love you. But I don't know how far back I can go and it will be impossible to take back some things said, felt and thought in the past years. So to reconstruct our love I think we have a narrow line that we should try to walk and elaborate the rules of our being together. But from my side it is necessary that you promise to never act again in a rash, impulsive manner and that you always give me the chance to come back to talk to you the next day even if I made a mistake hurting you the day before. But there needs to be a several day intervall at least before we should ever again decide to cut ties and avoid contact. This is not negotiable. Because else every encounter with you, as beautiful and intelligent as you are, will feel like shit from the start. I will not feel the energy in my heart to truly ipen up and talk passionately. Because simply my mind and my emotional memory is already anticipating the breakup that must be soon to follow if we meet and chatter and everything feels great.